Am i broken hearted?

[eng:6e340b8d6e]There are no quiet days without you, even when you are not around, you are in my heart and mind, you are a part of everything I'm doing, and I need you when things get rough, not necessary to help or advise, but just to be there, to bring back the feeling of being utterly and completely safe.You appeared to me so beautiful, so elevated above other girls; I am contemplating you with such a mixture of humility, admiration and love.When you are around, I feel that I have someone to live for, someone I must not disappointed.When you used to smile for me, my world were become an enchanted land, and everything around seemed brighter, and in the life's saddest moments, I should not have known what sorrow means with your smile.How can explain the enormous feeling of security in knowing that you are with me in this world? We could discuss everything in life and help each other and try to be real people.For me, your heart is my quiet home, how I wish that I'm your food, your bed, your extra blanket when it grows cold at night, how I wish that I'm your warmth, breath and shelter, the one that you want to be with when you cry, the only person who you need the most.There is something ultimate in my love for you, something that cannot fail, something to be lived against the whole world, it's a wonderful feeling when you become not an angel, but a girl for me.We were talking, peering at windswept and rains wept promenade, and you take a shelter of my coat, and I, so proud and happy to be your man.How I wish that I could still beside you, listening, explaining, cuddling you close, carrying you high.You are a part of me, you never got out of mind, wherever I am standing, or up to my knees in mud, half away down a cliff, or adrift in the fog, I am thinking of you.And when trials, heavy and sudden fell upon us, and adversity took the place of prosperity, when troubles thicken between us, I thought that you will cling to me to endeavor by your kind precepts and counsels to dissipate the clouds of darkness and cause peace to my heart, but you did not……..I thought that you love me like I do love you, with an affection which no chance, no misery, no crime of mine can do it away.And day after day, you were burning it all away, all the love that fills me and all the beauty that I see, with all the horror that you created and the entire disguise that you made.And now nothing left of me for you, but traces of a bitter man with list of plans and photographs, and songs that will never be sang.So tell me now about the love that you rejected, about the love that you disrespected, and tell me why you hurt the one that you should protected.[/eng:6e340b8d6e]